Beyond Our Universe

Tag: sadness

  • Losing My Serenity

    I thought I found my best, my protector. I did. We were together for a long time. I was happy and I felt protected and even loved for the first time of my life. It is lost and I am lost. I thought I would find a friend on Facebook, but they are all from the States. No Canadians, go figure. It is men, and men. No women. The story of my life.

    Life is weird especially my life. My family is keeping me going, but I feel alone. Cleaning my house and killing mean bugs. I thought I would have many years with my husband, but he got really sick and died. I am glad he is not suffering and not in pain, but without him I am lost.

    My writing helps me cope, but I miss the walks we had. The talking and watching him gaming. He loved fallout 76. He loved the killing. Drinking coffee until morning and falling asleep on his chair. His heart was weak, and diabetes played a big role on his life. He would sit with me outside and he would cook meals with wood and boy I miss it. Life is not the same anymore. The house is quiet, and it feels so cold and empty without him.

    Life is so damn unfair. But I have to fight this, like everything else in my life. Sorry for depressing my followers. But having no friends I just wanted to share my pain and sorrow. Well that’s life. People say time heals, but I don’t believe that. I feel angry that he was taken from me too soon. Doctors are meant to help people, but in this case. Nope. I am angry with him. Now I have the time to write my books, and maybe if I am lucky make some money.

    Thanks for ready my sad story. Have a good day or night.

  • Fighting

    My life is a struggle since I was born

    Nothing I did was ever right

    Had no friends

    And no one cared

    Alone I was and I still am

    No one to talk to because my best friend died

    life is unfair

    No one truly cares

    I fight to live because of my kids

    Cleaning the house day in day out

    What fun is that

    Life just gives me heartache and pain

    Family who does not give a damn

    What I say does not matter

    What I feel does not matter

    My heart wants to die

    But I fight it because of my kids

    I am alone, I am alone

    The end

    Written by Avril

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  • Saying Good Bye

    Today was a sad, happy, angry and warm day to say good bye to best friend and husband. The people were nice to me. My son said beautiful words about his father and my daughter spoke nicely about her dad and the cats. I said a few words and then I cried. I am glad he is not suffering any more. He lived with pain every day, and he couldn’t walk very well. His heart was weak, and he didn’t want to be here. He was in the hospital until today. The place he hated. Now he is in a place where he feels better.

    Life is short so make the best of your relationships. Love the people who you are close to. This is my way of saying good bye. I feel him spiritually with me and that helps me cope. So have a good day or night. Don’t fight with your soulmate or wife or husband. Love should always be good and kind.

    Thanks for dropping by Avril

  • Lost

    Running in every direction

    Through the trees

    Running on the beach for miles

    Running to the mountains and climbing to no where

    Dreaming of traveling to the stars

    Going through the black hole and never coming back

    Being alone and finding no peace

    Being alone and finding no peace

    Just empty dreams

    No place to release my anger

    No place to cry and the only happiness is death

    The end written by me Avril

  • Silent Cries

    I have not been writing for awhile because I am going through a lot of stress with new things to learn and do in my life. Being 62 sucks but life does go on. Only thing is my partner and best friend is gone. So I have to rely on me. It is really lonely with no friends, but my neighbors say hi from time to time so that is better then nothing. Sorry for being depressing and writing sad stuff. I know I am strong and life will get somewhat better. My kids who are now adults are keeping me on my toes. They are very special people in my life. They keep me going and moving on. So that is a plus.

    My writing is my healing and even my friend and I am cool with that. I get time for me when they go out so I am cool with that. I clean my house when I get angry. I work better that way too. My thoughts are on the back burner, so I concentrate on my tasks. It works. It truly does.

    I am sorry I am not reading your stuff, but I will find time. I am a slow reader. Hope you all are well. Take care. Have a good day or night.

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