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I like staying home. No passport, no money, no people around to bother me. Not worrying about losing stuff. Home is where I love being.

Being simple is who I am.

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He did my driveway without wanting any money. He did it because he saw what I was going through. His kindness made my day.  There are many young people who do that. Life is not the same because my husband is not with me. People help me in a time where I feel lost. I admire that because they don’t ask me anything, they do it because they want to. There should be more people like them. It is funny. Family does nothing, but strangers do more. Go figure.

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You know my husband died this year. March 2025. It has been a sad time for my kids and me. Still have these damn bed bugs. I am waiting for something terrible to happen. I got animals in my loft. I hope next year will get better. Life can be so unfair. I hope you guys are well and doing fine. I am just venting.

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I have learned that being me is the way I should be. Pretending to be someone else never works. If people don’t like me I don’t care. It would make me crazy to please everyone I meet. Being nice all the time sucks because you don’t get thank yous or your welcome. If I change myself in any way then I lose who I truly am as a person.

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I don’t like mornings. Even though the light is beautiful.  I prefer the dark.

Night is full of mystery and magic. Night is when stars are out. Unless it’s cloudy. The moon is full of energy where the magic happens. The night is my light.

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I love cats because you don’t have to walk them in the winter months. When it’s cold and slippery outside. Cats 🐈 are cuddly and cute. Black cats are my favorite because of their color. Black is the color mystery. The night sky. Cats are fun to play with too. Plus I love wild cats too.

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Growing up I believed parents are supposed to protect you and teach you things. I grew up knowing the opposite. What I believed in failed me. Trust is gone, my mother-in-law is gone. Nothing I ever did was good enough. It hurts when your partner dies and all you get is stress, and no one says sorry for your loss. I turned away from my family except my brother. Life is sad when you can’t even trust your family.

I am at peace with my life. No stress and no pretending I love who I hate deeply. I feel free to be me. I am glad my kids think I am a strong and good mom.

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Trust is very important because if you don’t have that. No relationship will work out. I have learned that the hard way what trust is. Trust to me has to be earned. Actions speak louder than words.

With hate you should know why you hate someone or a group of people. Hate starts wars, kills people who don’t even want to be involved in the situation. Hate is pointless. I see too much hate. Humanity should be one but that will never happen.

Then there are bed bugs.  Bed bugs are insects that can be very annoying. They are hard to get rid of. When that happened to me people didn’t want to be near me, or come into my house. This shows me that people can be paranoid not to do their job. I feel black balled and forgotten. Bed bugs are annoying, but I didn’t create them. Sorry I am venting. This shows people’s true character.

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I like to write ✍️ . Read books on stuff I like. I would be doing weight training. I think it is fun. I would go for walks. Drink lots of coffee ☕ especially ice cappuccino. 

That is about it.

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My kids are beautiful people. They are caring and honest. They are truthful. They have been through hard times with their dad gone. He died, but they keep on living and doing what they can. They are my life, my happiness and my joy. Without them I would be lost.

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I would not go swimming, but to walk along the beach on the warm sand. Then sitting and seeing the sun go down. Watching the silver on the water shine. Even seeing the stars shine brightly.

Little poem

Walking with you

Feeling the breeze on us

Holding hands

And taking a little squeeze

Feeling our love blossom

Wow what a walk

The end

April is the beginning of 🌼 spring when grass is green and flowers starting to bloom. The days get longer and ice is gone. The tree buds start growing again. Beautiful how nature works.

It is the same month I met my guy. April 13th. Good Friday. I remember that day clearly. I felt safe with him. The first thing I said was. “Can I see your eyes”. I said that because eyes never lie, and they are the window to our soul. That is what I believe. That was the best day of my life.

Life is not the same without him, but my love for him will never die

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There is so much anger and chaos living anywhere does not matter anymore. Where I live is okay. My house 🏡 is my safest place. We live in chaos because when very religious groups came to the west, the world became worse. It angers me that people can’t see what I see. People are allowed to be religious, but when you destroy a group then religion itself should be destroyed. I have seen hate, but never acceptance. Freedom is no more. When you are told how to live, then being safe anywhere is out the door 🚪. 

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My home 🏡 is where I like to be. I feel safe, and happy. I feel protected. Growing up I felt I was being watched. That is a very scary feeling. I hated to go out. Even school was a chore. My parents never understood why. I knew something was haunting me. Today I understand why. It is like a bad dream. 🏠 Is my happy place. Where I am safe and protected. Being in the country with nature, trees, rivers, and wild animals I rather be. Life is weird and my life is a story that is hard to believe.

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I lose a lot of stuff. The only thing I have is my hair brush. My hair is important to me.

The one coolest thing I had was not an object but a person. He was my everything. He always had a surprise for me.  He was 😎 cool. I know I can’t keep a person, but he will always be in my 💜 heart.

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He was dating my sister. He was in a band. I was playing guitar 🎸 for people and my parents. I invited my brother and sister but they didn’t want to come. My sister’s boyfriend Jess came. I was really happy about that. After the concert he told me he was proud of me. He will never be forgotten. I hope he is doing well.

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I love 😽 cats very much. They are cute. I like the YouTube channel. It is nice to listen to music. Especially when I am writing stuff. I use Quora a lot. I answer answers for people’s questions. Some people like my answers and others don’t. In time my book will be published. Then I will write other books. I go on Facebook and Instagram and X. 

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I would sit in the front seat of my dad’s 🚗 and he would drive me to school 🎒. I enjoyed math and I learned my times tables. I could add 3 columns fast. My brother and sister liked sitting in the back. It is funny, but I wasn’t fond of reading, but now I read when my kids are out. Which once in a while. I write when I get a chance.

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I look at everything I am on. I spend a quick glance on some of them. Others like here I look at every day, but I can’t read everyone’s stuff. I try to read what I can. I answer questions on Quora and I am there a lot.  I am working on my book, but that 🛑 stop and go. I enjoy being here.  Thank you for dropping by and have a good day or night 🌉 wherever you are in the world 🌎.

My grandmother was a very special woman. She could sew and watch t.v. at the same time. She cheered me up when I was down. She was truthful with me, and she listened to me. We enjoyed the same shows. She cared about what I did. She was a great person. I would go to the beach with her. She played cards until early morning. I miss her. I didn’t know my grandfather. But I wish I did. They were 11 years apart, but their love was priceless. Life was not the same when they died. I hope I meet them in another life.

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I wish my legs were stronger. They are weak.

I wish my back was stronger too.

I wish I had all new teeth. My life has been very stressful when my husband got sick.  When he died. I wish he could come back, but he can’t.

I wish my wishes come true.

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I hate those tiny little creatures. They destroy so much. Since my husband died in March they hung around and I still can’t get rid of them. Does anyone have suggestions? I haven’t been writing because they keep me up at night. People have given suggestions and nothing works. I tried vinegar that does not work. I can’t afford anyone to come in. I have to do it on my own. Life sucks, but I am strong enough to get through this. I needed to vent.

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I never felt that I was part of my family. Their world didn’t involve me. Having a disability they didn’t know how to talk to me. I felt like an outcast. They would stand in a circle and talk to other family members. I sat on my own. Just because you are family does not mean you belong. Family is supposed to be loving and caring, not mine. I rather swim with the sharks at least they know you exist. It’s sad, but I don’t care anymore. It is funny that strangers find time to talk to me. Go figure. I have learned that if you can’t trust family who can you trust. A stranger with a good ❤️ heart.

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I would be writing my book on paper 📜. I would enjoy coffee time, and sit and watch the trees move in the breeze. I would listen to music on the radio. But with computers and cell phones I can write and watch the wind blow and listen to music all at the same time.

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Energy is influenced by anger

Energy is influenced by sadness

Energy is influenced by my kids

Energy is influenced by the weather

Energy in the winter keeps me inside

Energy through music heals me

Without energy I would not be here

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I always felt we were not alone. Alien beings who are they, and what form are they? Are they dangerous or are they peaceful beings? Or both. The sky is so massive that it would be a waste of space if it was just us. How many other planets like earth are out there? I always wondered about that. It would be a waste of space if it was just us. What abilities do they have? I also wondered about black holes and where they go? Is it a future hole, a past hole or maybe the future. Who really knows.

I have learned about paranormal activity. The spirit realm where spirits fly. It is a very interesting subject. There are other realms too. The paranormal is something you don’t see with your eyes, but you feel their presence. Some people can see spirits. Those people think outside the box, and have an open mind. Life is not just us but so much more.

We are never alone, but so much is hidden from us because if we knew the truth it would change the world 🌍.

It is something to think about. Thanks for dropping by and have a good day or night wherever you are in the world 🌎.

Growing up I enjoyed music. I love, love songs mostly.

My parents listened to classical music and that sucked. Opera no way.

Rock and roll that was okay. Guns and roses, Motley Crue, Cinderella and others.

When I started to listen to saxophone music 🎵. I love, love songs mostly I mostly enjoyed it because there was no singing. It was peaceful. It calmed me down when my parents left and my mother-in-law went home 🏡.

There was another reason I enjoyed saxophone 🎷 music. I played it in my past life. I just felt a strong connection to it. I can’t play it now, but I love to hear the music.

Without music how could anyone walk down the aisle at their wedding. So without music it would be boring.

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I am not a leader or a follower either. I write to open peoples thinking in a different light. Sometimes someone’s words can hit a nerve. Or it changes someone’s thinking.

A leader tells people what to do. I don’t like to tell anyone what to do. Just like I don’t like being told what to do. A leader can challenge someone’s thinking to think like him or her. That is a choice.

A follower does not question anything because that person wants everyone to like him or her and they want to fit in.

A leader can be a good one or maybe a bad one. It all depends on what you believe to be true.

A follower does not believe in themselves and that is sad. They have a hard time making choices. We have to learn that our voice matters, and it does. Even when no one listens. Whatever you do, it’s your life.

Challenge yourself and make your own choices.

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I respect the men and women who work out. It comes with hard work and dedication. It takes time to exercise, but eating right and good sleep makes all the difference.

I believe in weight training. It is fun and exciting to see the changes in your body. It is better than breaking glass because you don’t have to clean the mess. Plus it’s not messy.

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Being 63 sucks because having leg pain and arthritis does become a pain when you need to clean your house. Also other reasons too.

Weight Training is the best exercise because it does the whole body. Weight training is not just for men. Women can do it too.

It helps release anger, and opens up muscles you never knew you had. You also have a sense of pride in yourself of what you can achieve. You are never too old to make yourself better.

Wishing to do something is one thing, but doing it is another. When your mind, body and soul is alive you can achieve anything.

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There is one word I do favor when it comes to friends and relationships. It is trust. Without trust and honesty you have nothing.

Trust is being reliable and there for a person in time when you need someone to cry on, and to listen to your struggles and hardships. Without trust you end up relying on yourself and you try to trust a person but you think to yourself what is going to happen to you, and when will my relationship end.

Trust is very important and when you have been screwed over your whole life you question everything. Life should not be like this but it is.

I hope I can trust again, but proven it will take time. I have learned to trust one person, me. That is a start.

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I wish I had a good week or even a good day. I am sorry to be a drag. When my best friend and husband died. Everything went to hell. I find out I have bed bugs and nobody wants to come into my house. I feel like a plague. Life can be so unfair.

People tell me I am strong and I am doing things that I need to do. Inside I feel like screaming and crying and no one cares. The only one who thinks of me is my brother. When you trust your family they stab you in the back. You end up on your own.

Writing is the only thing that keeps me going. I wish life was better. Maybe if I am lucky it will get better. Sorry to depress people who are following me.  I hope next year will be better.  I will have a good week when all bed bugs are out of my home 🏡. Then I will be better.

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I thought my family loved me, but their actions went another way. My sister had a hard time knowing about me and she didn’t even try. My brother was distant but we are getting closer. My parents and mother-in-law can’t stand her. So they are out of my life.

It is okay to hold a grudge because you know who you can trust and who not to trust. It takes courage to walk away from family members who lied to you for so many years.

My life has hard challenges but I am a fighter. I will get through my anger and challenges. My kids keep me strong. Their happiness is important to me. People come and go, but people who truly love you stick around.

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When my husband died it broke my heart 💜 because I would miss his smile and his positive energy. I know he would not be in pain anymore and that was and is important to me. I was with him for 35. Friendship never dies and love never dies. He is at peace now. He is missed. I am glad he came into my life. I hope we can meet in another lifetime.

What I am angry about is. How he was treated when he was alive. The frustrations he was going through. His mother never listened to him. My parents never did either. I did, and I felt his anger and frustrations. Love I had for him kept him going. When you are full of anger and hate your heart says I don’t want to be here. So listen to people who need to be heard. They will thank you in many ways.

My husband and my best friend. I miss you and my love will never die for you.

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Cities are too big. A town would be full of trees, rivers, ponds, and a beautiful park where children can play safely. There would be no crimes, no violence. I wish it could be that way.

The town would have nice shops and coffee shops. So I can have IceCaps coffee from Tim Hortons. I am allowed to dream. The town would be safe and people would be nice to each other. I can dream.

The town would have better prices. Things would be cheaper. Food, clothes, and so much better. A town can’t have anything negative. A positive place to be.

It sounds good, but again I am allowed to dream.

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My kids who are adults now keep me going. They need me and I need them both. It’s not easy being mom and dad, but I’ll try. 

When I have energy I ride my still exercise bike. When I get the courage I will get into weight training. I enjoyed pumping weights especially when I was angry.  I tried breaking glass 🍷 but that was a mess to clean up. So I stuck with the weights.

I don’t like my name. But I kept it. I didn’t know him. He died before I was born. Life gives you challenges, but it goes on. You don’t ask who your family is. My life would have been better if I knew what my rights are, but I didn’t.

Today  I live my life my way. I don’t ask for approval. I do what I want, when I want. I still have my name because it was given to me. I like being me. I know when I say something I mean it.

Names can change, but what I feel, what I believe stays with me for life. A name might change, but what you believe stays with you for life

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Night Time and sit and read, sometimes write. It depends on my mood. I try doing my.

Night Time is my quiet time. During the day I get some time to myself when my adult kids are busy with their friends.  I don’t mind when they want to spend time with me.

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I breathe and I see what is important to me and I write what needs to be done. I work when I have energy and rest when I need to. I don’t rush my work that needs doing. I challenge myself to try stuff I am not sure about. I just do what needs doing. If I am not sure of something I google it. My book is slow and stop, but I am not giving up on my dream of writing books. My goals take slow steps, and I have the time to do what I need to do.

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I never felt cared for and loved except for my husband and kids. It is painful that you can’t trust your family. My family is very small, but I know I am loved. My life was tough, fighting for love and acceptance. Being 62 I am starting to trust again. When my husband died I felt alone, but I am grateful that I can trust the people who want to help me get on track and do what I need to do. Being grateful is one thing, but trusting comes with hard work and effort. Life can bring challenges, but I am strong enough to keep fighting for my independence even though I do it alone. My kids keep me going. I am grateful that they keep me going. I still feel peace and serenity in my life.

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I am 62 years old . I need to be mom and dad. I need to make decisions. Right or wrong I do it. I learned to trust myself because the people I trusted the most lied to my face.

My kids who are now adults need me. I didn’t want to turn out like my parents so I said, “I will be the opposite of them.” I am happier for it. My motivation is to make my life my way and do what makes me happy. It is challenging, but I can do it. My life, my way.

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There is nothing wrong with wishing something magical will happen in your life. I believe when you love your husband and your kids that would be magical in itself. It is.

Magic can be healing a sickness. Or bathing in a warm bath made of beautiful flowers.

Spirits are also magical beings that can move objects, hide objects, and so much more.

I believe in the paranormal and it can be scary as well as beautiful. Not all things can be seen with our eyes but are there.

Witchcraft is a craft, and is very magical but in the wrong hands it is dangerous.

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I love brushing my hair. My hair is important to me. So I carry one. Have a good day or night wherever you are in the world 🌍.

I decided not to be like my parents. I look at the world differently.  I see the stars, planets and an open mind. We are not alone. I question everything. I question religion.  I question politics. I question everything. I see love as a special bond. I see having kids and protecting them from bad people. I listen to my kids. My parents views are not mine. How I see the world is different from most people. I believe I see the world with an open mind because the world is not black or white. It is mystical and magical. It all depends on what you want to believe in.

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I have been a fighter all of my life. I survived death when I was a baby. I couldn’t walk until I was 4 years old. I was a very quiet person and I still am. Life was always a challenge for me. Fighting is not always physical it can be a very emotional ride. Growing up I have learned a lot on my own, but you never ever stop learning. I have come a long way. I have learned to trust one person that is myself. When you trust others they disappear when they are bored of you or just have enough. I have learned getting old sucks, but I still fight to stay strong for my kids who are now adults, but still need to rely on me. It is lonely when you have no one to cry on or talk to. Life goes on. I want people to know never give up and stay strong because relying on yourself makes you a stronger person. My life is not perfect and at times I feel broken. But every day I wake up and start a new day. Sorry this is depressing but not everyone has someone to fall back on. I look at myself as my own best friend. Writing is my best friend.

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Music helps me to be creative. Be it poetry or a subject that just popped into my head. Music can calm the savage beast or make you write something you didn’t think of before. It all depends on my mood. So enjoy your evening. Thanks for dropping by and have a good day or night wherever you are in the world 🌎🌍.

People have their own idea of what life is all about. We have religions, so we have wars. We have education and I still don’t see intelligent people. I see a lot of hate, and bloodshed. Life can be better, but no one is trying to solve issues. We live in a world of dreams, but no one sees the future. If we did the world would be a different place. We try to reach the stars and beyond, but how can we get along there, when we cannot be civil to each other here. The only way we can get along is to get rid of all religions and work for all of humanity. Only time will tell.

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I have been lied to most of my life. Nothing what I said mattered. My parents never listened to me. What my parents said mattered.  They are out of my life. So is my mother in law too. It feels really good.  People say you can trust family, but you can’t. I have learned to depend on myself, and that matters the most. Being truthful shows one’s character. When you lie once fine, but when it is more then I will never trust again.

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Being romantic is not about having sex. It is being in the same room and watching him play fallout 76 and killing everything he sees and hearing him laugh and smile doing it.

Romance is sitting together and drinking coffee ☕ and then cuddling up to each other and listening to the birds sings.

Going for a night walk hand in hand. Just the two of us. A quiet time.

Love is just being together and talking about whatever comes into our heads. That is love.

Friendship starts with a smile and knowing the person. Being truthful wins every time.

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Being spiritual to me means something special. It does not mean I believe in God. It goes deeper then that. I did not understand how God can be so loving and kind and how destructive it can be. There are a lot of religions, but it never gave me peace. I did not feel a connection with it. I felt empty. I wanted equality in my life, and I wanted my opinions to matter. What I felt be heard. When I met my hubby. Everything fell into place. We both did not believe in God. We treated each other the same. My opinion mattered and so did his. We did what we wanted to do, and it felt right. We brought up our children with a will to choose what they want to believe. Their opinions mattered and we are okay with it.

Being spiritual means to me that spirits live among us. Spirits are people and even animals that have died. I am a stronger believer in the spirit realm. I feel connected to spirits and I know they are around when I feel coolness in the air. I see them through my phone which is cool. I can’t see them with my own eyes, but that is okay.

That is what being spiritual means to me.

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