Beyond Our Universe

Category: Fear

  • Sharing My Disability

    Sharing My Disability

    I thought about sharing this because I was forced to. My dad wrote a book and put my disability in his book. I am here to prove what I write about is real and that I know what I am writing about. This is my biggest fear because I don’t want to be looked at as a disability, but to be remembered for my knowledge about the witchcraft, the paranormal, and Space and not being only us on this planet. Life for me is a struggle, and that started at birth. But I hope people are sincere in liking my work and not feeling sorry for me. I hate that. My life is my story. Nothing in my life ever worked the way I wanted to, but my writing is who I am. It is my friend and my heart and soul go into it.

    Thanks for dropping by and reading this. Don’t hold it against me. Have a good night or day wherever you are in the world.

  • Quicksand

    Slowly I sink

    slowly I try and yell help

    slowly my body goes under

    My legs

    My knees

    My hips

    My stomach

    My chest

    My neck

    Then my head

    Then I wake up and it is just a dream

    Written by me Avril

  • Losing My Serenity

    I thought I found my best, my protector. I did. We were together for a long time. I was happy and I felt protected and even loved for the first time of my life. It is lost and I am lost. I thought I would find a friend on Facebook, but they are all from the States. No Canadians, go figure. It is men, and men. No women. The story of my life.

    Life is weird especially my life. My family is keeping me going, but I feel alone. Cleaning my house and killing mean bugs. I thought I would have many years with my husband, but he got really sick and died. I am glad he is not suffering and not in pain, but without him I am lost.

    My writing helps me cope, but I miss the walks we had. The talking and watching him gaming. He loved fallout 76. He loved the killing. Drinking coffee until morning and falling asleep on his chair. His heart was weak, and diabetes played a big role on his life. He would sit with me outside and he would cook meals with wood and boy I miss it. Life is not the same anymore. The house is quiet, and it feels so cold and empty without him.

    Life is so damn unfair. But I have to fight this, like everything else in my life. Sorry for depressing my followers. But having no friends I just wanted to share my pain and sorrow. Well that’s life. People say time heals, but I don’t believe that. I feel angry that he was taken from me too soon. Doctors are meant to help people, but in this case. Nope. I am angry with him. Now I have the time to write my books, and maybe if I am lucky make some money.

    Thanks for ready my sad story. Have a good day or night.

  • Fighting

    My life is a struggle since I was born

    Nothing I did was ever right

    Had no friends

    And no one cared

    Alone I was and I still am

    No one to talk to because my best friend died

    life is unfair

    No one truly cares

    I fight to live because of my kids

    Cleaning the house day in day out

    What fun is that

    Life just gives me heartache and pain

    Family who does not give a damn

    What I say does not matter

    What I feel does not matter

    My heart wants to die

    But I fight it because of my kids

    I am alone, I am alone

    The end

    Written by Avril

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  • Listening to the Whispers

    Feeling chills down my back

    Coldness and pain

    To sooth my soul I think of my best friend

    I know I am not alone in my house 🏠

    I hear sounds but they are good

    My heart ❤️ beats fast and I slow it down

    My cats are close and they tell me I’m safe

    Spirits come into my mind and dreams

    Then I want to scream

    They feel my fear but

    I am stronger than them

    Morning comes and then I am okay again

    The end

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  • Past Life Fears

        Have you ever wondered why you fear water, heights or even people. Or you dislike a group of people. Even foods from different countries. It is something to think about.

        Maybe you are interested in a country that you have never been to but you were there in a past life. Maybe when you open up your subconscious memories you remember the events in detail about that place.

        Some people believe in past lives while others do not. Maybe you are meant to do a life over again so you will not make those you done wrong again.  It is good to have an open mind because maybe something better will happen to you in another life. Maybe making better decisions to make things right.

        Life is a mystery. When you think outside the box a new door opens up.

         Don’t give up on what you believe because in the end it is your life and no one else’s.

        Maybe you should listen to your fears because it is trying to protect you so you will not make that mistake happen again. Even when people cannot convince you to not do something your higher self is trying to protect you against yourself. Maybe you have a spirit guide to intervene. It is something to think about.

        Reincarnation is real even if you do not believe in it.

          Death is not an end, but a doorway to another life or you choose to stay in the spirit realm.

       Fears are with us for a reason, so you should listen to them.

         When you have an open mind new possibilities will happen for you.

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