Beyond Our Universe

Category: challenges

  • Crying

    How do you handle fear and self-doubt?

    When you are on your own. Crying and sitting in bed is the only way I know. I put off what I need to do. Eventually I get around to doing what I need to do.

    Anxiety is something you can’t explain to someone who is not in the same position as you. They think you’re faking your emotions. Just to get attention. It is not true.

    People think I am a strong person but deep down I am crying for help but no one listens. I am not here to get attention, or someone to feel sorry for me. It is my way to release my feelings about anxiety. It is a disability. It is not noticeable, but it exists.

    I believe fear comes from anxiety, but how people deal with it is different for each person. Having no friends makes life more challenging. People say no one is alone, but that is not true. I live for my kids, that keeps me going.

    Thank you for dropping by and have a good day or night wherever you are in the world 🌍

  • Test Me

    What is the meaning of life?

    Life means different things to different people.  My life was one challenge after another. But I fought and I never gave up.

    I didn’t know what my dream was, but I know what my dream is now. To write books 📚 .  That is my challenge. To succeed in this tough industry.

    Life is about living your dream and not giving up. I have lost a lot, but at the same time. I didn’t give up.  I have learned to rely on myself. That is what life is all about. 

    I always say. Trust your gut. It won’t steer you wrong.  Life is about challenges, failure or success. It all depends on you.

    Thank you for dropping by and have a good day or night wherever you are in the world 🌍.

  • I Am Not Sure

    If you had to describe your ideal life, what would it look like?

    I have had a hard life. I believed my family loved me and I could trust them. Today I am on my own. I don’t trust my family. I talk to my brother and I am okay with that.

    When my husband passed away my life changed again. He was my best friend. I know he is in a better place.

    I hope I find a friend who will grow old with me. I hope I will be lucky. One man is enough for me. Trusting is difficult, but I would give a man a chance. That would be great.

    Life has its ups and downs and I hope my life will be good again.  I have never been a quitter. My children who are adults keep me going.

    Thank you for dropping by and have a good day or night wherever you are in the world 🌍

  • Never Giving Up

    What are you most proud of in your life?

    I had many challenges growing up. Having a disability and trying to live a life and fighting to fit in and find a happy place. I did when I met my husband. 35 years of love and acceptance. Being treated with equality. I had 3 kids, and two of my kids are still with me. I did something I never thought I could do. Be a parent and one day write my book or maybe books. This is what I am proud of. When my husband died I lost my protector and my only friend. But I have the strength to carry on and live for me.

    Thanks for dropping by and have a good day or night wherever you are in the world 🌍.

  • People with Disabilities

    If you had a million dollars to give away, who would you give it to?

    People who have a disability don’t have the same advantages as someone who doesn’t have a disability. People with disabilities still live like it’s the 1800s. I say that with anger and frustration. When you are different you are treated like you are dumb and that you don’t understand life. That is not true.

    Just because you can’t say what you feel does not mean they don’t understand. They just don’t have the words.

    I would give people who can’t afford schools for people with special needs. I would want to write a book about disabilities that you can’t physically see. Those are the people who are lost and alone. They are misunderstood. Anxiety and fears can lead to disabilities. Life is complex as it is, but people who don’t have a disability don’t know what it’s like living in a world of hate and being judged before saying a word. I told someone once. It is like living with a two edged sword. You are looked at as a very disabled person, or normal. The middle is where people like me are. You can’t see my disability, but you are  looked at as a strange person. I would like people to understand there are a lot of people in this position. We live in an unfair world 🌎.

    It is nice to be heard and taken seriously. When people listen to you, your life can change for the better. Listen to your children and protect them when you need to.

    Thank you for dropping by and have a good day or night wherever you are in the world 🌍.

  • Depending On Me

    What was the hardest personal goal you’ve set for yourself?

    I always rely on others to help me with stuff. Now I am on my own. I am proud that I can rely on myself because it shows me I have had the courage all along to do things I was afraid of doing. Being spoiled didn’t help me because I have to learn stuff on my own. After I learn something I know it.

    Challenging myself can be hard, but in the end I am the winner 🏆. Life can be a struggle, but when I learn something. It makes me feel good. No matter my age. I will never give up on myself.

    No matter your age there is something new to learn.

    Thank you for dropping by and have a good night or day wherever you are in the world 🌍.

  • My Health

    What details of your life could you pay more attention to?

    Being 63 years old sucks because I haven’t been looking after myself. My husband was more important. He mattered. He relied on me. His health was going from bad to worse. He is in a better place now.

    Now it’s my turn to look after myself. I am going to start weight training again and riding my still bike. It will be my challenge to do it. I am a fighter, and it is my time. I need to love myself.

    Thank you for dropping by and have a good day or night wherever you are in the world 🌍

  • Walking

    Are there things you try to practice daily to live a more sustainable lifestyle?

    I enjoy being online and reading people’s posts here and elsewhere. If I sit all day I will end up in a wheelchair. I don’t want that. When I go to appointments I walk. My son goes with me because if I fall I need his help to get up. Getting old sucks. I am going to do my still bike and ride until my legs are strong again. Even weight training. My husband and I did that together. Now I have to have the strength to do it on my own. I am not a quitter. Trying to get healthy is not an easy task, but if I give up my adult kids will be lost without me. So I fight every day to do what I need to do. Life is tough but it will get better.

    Have a good day or night wherever you are in the world 🌍.

    If this person can do it so can I.

  • This poem is about my husband and my best friend

    I never asked to be like this

    I was born differently

    My thoughts and feelings never mattered

    I was alone every day

    No one spoke to me

    My words never heard

    Now today I am alone again

    And now am making friends in a weird circumstance

    My husband gone and nothing is the same

    I challenge myself to leave my house

    My love for him remains the same and no one will take his place

    Love never dies

    My house is not the same

    The smell of wood and his cooking I miss

    Him playing Fallout 76 and killing everything in site

    No more sound but the silence

    It’s not the same without him

    I enjoy writing poetry so check it out. If you want to.

    Have a good day or night wherever you are in the world.

  • My Passion

    My Passion is my children . My Passion also is writing about disabilities so people will understand the struggles and deep emotions with living with a disability. It is something you are born with. You don’t ask for it, it just is. When my dad wrote his book he mentioned my disability and that angered me because he wanted to make his wife look good and wonderful. It made me feel angry because I wanted to prove to myself that I am a capable person and writing about things that I have knowledge about. I didn’t want to be treated differently than anyone else, but I had to share my story.

    There are many kinds of disabilities. But there is one that you cannot see at first glance. If you spoke to me in person you can see I have a hard time understanding issues. But it does not make me stupid. It just takes time to process things .

    People who don’t have a disability should understand not everyone is that lucky. To remember things comes easy, to get a degree is easy. I had to fight my challenges, and get my grade 12. Also to remember things someone would tell me.

    My Passion is to protect my kids who are adults now and make sure they are heard. Their disabilities are more server than mine. My parents never listened to me. They treated me like a child. Now I am 62 and I have to learn how to look after me, but also my family. I still I have a lot to learn.

    I believe people with all types of disabilities are treated horribly and wrongfully by society today. I need to write a book about it. We are treated like we still live in the 1800s. It is time for a change.

    So yes this is my passion, but it is also my life. I will write about the paranormal, reincarnation, and the spirit realm. That is also what I am passionate about.

    Thanks for reading my passion’s and have a good day or night wherever you are in the world.

    Daily writing prompt
    What are you passionate about?
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  • Sharing My Disability

    Sharing My Disability

    I thought about sharing this because I was forced to. My dad wrote a book and put my disability in his book. I am here to prove what I write about is real and that I know what I am writing about. This is my biggest fear because I don’t want to be looked at as a disability, but to be remembered for my knowledge about the witchcraft, the paranormal, and Space and not being only us on this planet. Life for me is a struggle, and that started at birth. But I hope people are sincere in liking my work and not feeling sorry for me. I hate that. My life is my story. Nothing in my life ever worked the way I wanted to, but my writing is who I am. It is my friend and my heart and soul go into it.

    Thanks for dropping by and reading this. Don’t hold it against me. Have a good night or day wherever you are in the world.

  • Fighting

    My life is a struggle since I was born

    Nothing I did was ever right

    Had no friends

    And no one cared

    Alone I was and I still am

    No one to talk to because my best friend died

    life is unfair

    No one truly cares

    I fight to live because of my kids

    Cleaning the house day in day out

    What fun is that

    Life just gives me heartache and pain

    Family who does not give a damn

    What I say does not matter

    What I feel does not matter

    My heart wants to die

    But I fight it because of my kids

    I am alone, I am alone

    The end

    Written by Avril

    Thanks for dropping by and have a good day or night

  • Freedom

    Daily writing prompt
    What does freedom mean to you?
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    Freedom means you have a choice how you want to live your life. If you want long hair, or short hair that should be up to you. My parents controlled me and how long my hair would be. Today I am 62 and my hair is long and I like it.

    Freedom is believing in what you want to believe and not be swayed to what others want you to believe. It goes for politics too. Freedom is the right to go wherever you want to go and be with who you want to be. Let no one tell you how to live and what to believe in. In the end the choices you make are up to you.

    Love should be unconditional. It should be agreed between both parties. How you perceive love and what you want out of a relationship. Love should be friendship first and later the icing on the cake. Friends lasts for years. Life is not simple, but when you live it your way it makes everything worth your while.

    Freedom is not feeling trapped in a relationship where you do not want to be. You need to feel good where you are, and where you see your life. When you have someone to grow old with that is worth your weight in gold. Being rich or poor does not matter, but your friendship and trust should be the first thing on your list.

    Thanks for reading and dropping by. Have a good night or day wherever you are in the world.

  • That age I would sleep did not think of a career

    When you were five, what did you want to be when you grew up?

    I want to write books, and sell my husband’s stamps. Never thought I would do it alone.  I wish my husband was here. Sorry sad moment. Have a good day or night.

  • Disabilities

    What’s something most people don’t understand?

    Most main stream people who don’t have a disability treat people with a disability like children and don’t believe anything they say. The disabled person shuts down and many times commits suicide. It is sad. People with disabilities just want to be treated normal and be heard. Life is a bitch when no one listens. Even siblings don’t treat them like people, they only see their disability and they stay away from them because they feel ashamed of them. If they were treated normally we would have a very different world. Love should be unconditional. Spend time with them not out of obligation but because you want to from your 💜 heart.

    Thanks for the likes. It means a lot to me.

  • Two Words I Don’t Believe

    Do you believe in fate/destiny?

    You make your world 🌍 the way you want. You can change your life if you choose to. No life is written in stone.

  • Writing stuff

    What is the biggest challenge you will face in the next six months?

    Writing can be a challenge when you do it everyday. I hope I will succeed.  Never give up your dream.